Friday, May 7, 2010

Dear Fire,

Ever since I was little, mommy said don't touch. So for a little while I listened, and I didn't play with fire. But everyone knows as soon as you tell a child not to do something, rest assured they will do it. I got bored of just watching and decided to put my hand in, just for a second. Real quick. No one would see. And it didn't even hurt! It was even a little bit fun. So I kept testing the limits. Doing it a little bit more every day, sure that I wouldn't get hurt. But finally one day I left my hand in too long. I forgot I'd even put it into the fire. And I got burned. But it was just a little burn, it only hurt for a few days. I left it alone for awhile, and it eventually got better. Then what do I do once it finally healed? I go straight back to playing with fire. Burning myself over and over again. Some days on purpose, and other days without even knowing it. When will I learn? Good little girls don't go playing with fire. Good little girls don't ever get burned. But for girls like me, even if it eventually heals, you'll still have the scars to remind you.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Dear Book,

You make me laugh. It's been a long time since someone made me laugh so much that I forget to be careful. I love that I can find pieces of myself scattered between your words. That wall that I've fought so hard to build keeps crumbling down, brick by brick. Other times you make me want to throw you across the room because I can't stand waiting to see how it's going to turn out. Then I can pick up a few bricks and start stacking them again. But I never get very far. I was never going to open you up in the first place because I've read stories like yours before. For some reason I always think the next one is going to be different. The next one won't leave me feeling hollow and empty. But somehow I found myself peeking into the pages before I realized it. Now I'm too enchanted. Now I can't stop reading, even if I know it might hurt at the end. So I'll continue to crawl through your dusty pages and hope that those last final words won't be blurred and drenched by tears.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Dear Push,

I am standing on the fence, teetering ever so precariously. I am waiting, and waiting, and waiting. I'm hoping you'll come and send me straight over the edge. There's only two sides of a fence. The problem is, that I want you to force my hand. I want you to choose which side I fall on. It's not fair, it's not logical, it's not right. But I still want it anyway. I can only balance for so long though. Gravity is pulling me down. Every passing second brings me closer to the edge. Sooner or later I'll come crashing down, but will you be there to catch me?

Monday, February 15, 2010

Dear Toast,

I'm waiting around for it to pop. So I'm running around in the morning, trying to get everything just right. Trying to remember everything I need to do. Trying not to focus on the toast. When it finally pop ups, it startles me. I have to stop whatever I'm doing. I can't do anything until I get the toast out. It's nagging at me constantly. Go get the toast out. I can't ignore it all the time. It's impossible. Throughout the day, I can't get toast out of my head. Even though there's a million other things to eat, all I want is toast. It's stupid really. Toast is not that healthy for you. In fact it has very little nutritional value at all. If I eat toast every day for every meal, it gives me the shakes. Not good for the blood sugar. It's too distracting. So I go off the toast. As much as I can. But every morning, toast is still there. Taunting me. Tempting me. I could tell myself to quit eating breakfast...but breakfast is my favorite part of the morning! It's the most important meal. So where does that leave me and the toast?

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Dear Peanut Butter,

Let's be honest, peanut butter is my favorite. Nothing has quite been the same since it came into my life. I knew from the first time...but there were complications, so I tried to ignore it. I didn't know how much I'd like it until I got the jar open. Then there was no going back. For the first little bit, I thought I had found the perfect solution to everything. But then I started to realize that peanut butter's best quality was also its' worst. It goes well with everything. It's the condiment that perfectly compliments a zillion other things. Now everybody knows Peanut Butter is best with Jam....but that doesn't stop Peanut Butter from trying new things. And maybe Peanut Butter should try new things. After all, Jam is kind of boring...and Jam isn't all that great by itself anyways.